our love is god's love only to have had and to only know so when you play your game do you see what i had beforehands and had without hands so when you took me when you took my hands did you see what they had and what they wanted did you see that they are hands did you see that they are not feets did you see that they are not what they could have not been did you see that they are what are they the hatred are they well you cannot answer that you can answer what you had before was not love but hatred so you go you see your hatred and i see what you could have had and i waited miserably at the bus stop for the next means of transportation out of this hell and ended with nothing so you said let's go have fun let's go dance and let's take all we have and when did when we do so could it have been less fun so here we go here's our fun of nothing there is nothing i want to have fun i want to dance vainly seeking what i could have not had and so you came with a gun to say hello nice to meet you and goodbye and that's all you can say so here we are again can i say hi at least is there a way to give that salutation and is there a way to say goodbye in another tongue well for you for me to understand together here is our goodbye to your hellos, so

i am your toy

i am your neighbor's toy

and i am your 

no i cannot be yours

when the day came, did you see

what you had found

was it found to not be had

and when you had to have had me like that,

was it worth it

was it necessary

and most of all was it needed,

because necessities are not needs,

and i am not needful, i am not wanting, yet i have a necessities i have a few needs and here they are

1. i need hope

2. i need lack of hope

3. i need to have wants

and as i get hungry as i want foods nutrients i say please forgive me i have no more needs today

there are times, when one will say,

please help us out

i wish for you to help us out

and you cannot

so is there a means out

is there a means to go in

after going out, did you find anything inside

was it fun

was it needed and were you really helping us out 

and if you were if you needed to then how come

you didn't

tell me so

you didn't

was it needed for you to have had me in such a way, to have turned off the lights when i needed someone to pay

i could have turned the lights on to help you see,

but vainly stupidly i turned them off so i could hurt you, to see you in the dark, and not in the light

and i'm saying just this,

justice is peace and knowledge, and injustice is not turning on the lights, it is more than that; justice is injustice, so when you turn back the lights on, can i please help you to them, to see what you could have not seen, and when those unseen sights have no way to become, will you know why i haven't seen them before, knew they were there, and most of all know why they haven't

they have not been seen only because i hadn't turned on the lights before, and afterwards when you see things more clearly, whenever that may be, i want you to know

God loves you

You should have loved He

I loved He 

I love He

I will love HE, and finally

Definitively, Loving Thee

to always

1. Turn on the light

2. Turn the lights

3. Give

4. Light

5. I needed light, therefore money is inconsequential

was there to start with

made you happy and giddy and dance,

to songs of the devil, the creature is a human, nothing less, only more, and she was your bestie, i was yours

and when i killed the devil, i said directly,

please do not stay

only for God today

for God forgot you tomorrow

not yesterday,

so God cared all along

and most of all time was his, carried us through, and now and forever Amen

This is a war against whom where and whys, a war against those who are not the ones you are looking for, and for those I've said goodbye in many tongues that are cut off and so I say 

Please help

To see Our Lights

Shine Brighter

And to kill money because money is not brighter than God's love and always to know that when you tried to kill me when you took all my moneys it was sort of empowering I lost everything you thought because money means I gained a lot in the sense I had money to have learned to kill you and that's how you died with nothing as I said suicide and when I suicided when I killed my body and ascended because all suicides go to heaven i said

please God forsake me and help those who I have hurt, the hurt was definite, and not in my head and my head hurt please do not let it hurt more

the pain the agony Mother Mary's weeping and I want to dry her tears and I hope I did die for her too live further through out time and for God to reign at churches to heal pains